A Phase

This is just a phase. A temporary phase; your heart broken into pieces, you get so jealous with certain bunch of people as you believe with your instinct but you couldn't describe it as what it is really about, you get so emotional over simple things which to you, it's about you; your feelings. It gets so hard sometimes to endure it. You are trying your best to refrain yourself from spitting it out which might leads to hurting the loved ones. You're trying to keep it to yourself, personally. You called yourself a psycho; insane young lady. You tell yourself this is just a phase, you're helping yourself at this critical time in your life. You find it so difficult to absorb things surround you. You keep telling yourself that everything is gonna be ok, yes ok. You try hard to smile and make your life happy but the sad truth,it doesn't work that way.  You try to avoid things that hurt you badly. You go to sleep with high hope to wake up and feeling way better than before. You try to forget things that lingering on your mind. It's kinda disturbing. It bothers you. All the time. Until you wish something terrible.You ask permission if you can lose all your memories which you don't want to remember as in return you want them to feel hurt by it. A sad thing, a selfish you. 

You ask the Almighty to help you, to at least, make your journey smoother and let you go through it with patience. He let it happen, bringing peace into your soul.